Thursday, January 12, 2012

My stats...*cringe*

thck= thickest part of ____
thn= thinnest part of ____
Ok guys, these are the measurements and weights of...well, me. I know they're awful! But I finally decided that I can't just keep putting it off, it's just better that I know. It certainly makes me want to starve and work my ass off!
thck butt- 35 in
thn waist- 26in          <---- Victoria Beckham is a 23in waist!! :O
forearm- 7 3/4 in
upper arm- 9 in
wrist- 5 3/4 in
thck, thn calve- 12 1/2 in, 8 in
thck, thn thigh- 20 in, 14 in
hips (like where pants and underwear usually come to)- 32 in
rib cage (right below bust)- 29 in
Weight- 108.2
I'm not sure how tall I am, because they usually say i'm 5'3.5", but last time they measured me as 5'3". ummm did i seriously SHRINK?
and i just measured myself and seemed to get about 5'3.75", so basically my BMI should be between 18.6 and 18.9.
a BMI of under 18.5 is UNDERWEIGHT. am i actually suppose to believe that? I am NOT close to being underweight!!
My first goal is, again, 105, which will give me a BMI of 18
Then, my goal is 100, which will give me a BMI of 17.2!!!
(If i consider myself 5'4", that is)

So, there you have it. I've completely revealed myself to you all! It actually feels a bit nice to have everything out in the open, but i still feel like a fucking whale. Oh well xD
Stay strong ladies!

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Runway Thinspo!

I feel like EVERYBODY does real girl thinspos recently. But you know what? Runway models are pros at staying perfect and thin! I think they're just amazing photos, and super inspiring. The thing is that these girls are "real" too. If they can do it, we should all be able to too! Did you hear that? YOU can do this, girlfriend!

Sunday, January 1, 2012

It's been a while!

Hey guys, it's been a while! I'm planning a thinspo shortly so stay tuned :D
Not much has happened since I last updated. I'm still with Eli, still fat...still hungry. I've eaten like a pig over New Years! Hanukkah sucked this year because it just HAD to be during finals week. I was so fucking behind in my classes, it was unreal. I basically had no life for exactly a week. I pulled study sessions from 6 AM to Midnight. I was so stressed and tired that I was simply...NOT hungry (for once). The idea of food just made me sick! Even my portions were small after that week. Even so, I still got all A's, which is great! I haven't weighed myself in FOREVER, and frankly, I'm too terrified to step on that scale. I was looking fantastic on my study week, and now I'm back to my normal, over eating self. Luckily, holidays are over and I'll try to correct my bad habits. I actually wanted to try going vegan this year (6 days out of the week, to keep myself from going insane), but like starving, it's a bit hard to do when everyone in your house doesn't follow your rules. So, I don't think I will. It's not like my mom would cook vegan for dinner, she hates tofu! My goal is still 100 pounds.I haven't even been watching what i eat for like a whole month! I need to come back to my haven (this blog community). Does anyone know of any diets that work well and are easy to get away with/ hide? Let me know ^_^ Have a fantastic new year ladies! Stay Thin <3