I'm slowly healing

First of all, thank you so much to those of you that offered your words of wisdom and love, I really appreciate it! I told his best friend to tell my ex happy birthday. He said that my ex has been really off lately and he's not sure what's going on, I noticed it too a week ago. He didn't actually know why we broke up, so I explained to him all that about "I just don't think I should be in a relationship right now" and "I'm going through a lot of shit and i really don't want to talk about it, it's embarrassing." He told me that if he were to guess why the breakup happened, it's probably because my ex he thinks he isn't good enough.
That just kills me. He's very troubled, and has survived suicide 2 or 3 times so I know he actually is very hurt and struggling at home and within his own head, but wouldn't letting me go end up hurting him more? This is why I'm frustrated; I don't understand his reasoning.
After I saw the way he looked opposite of his friends and watched me yesterday on and off all through lunch, I'm not going to give up on him until he literally says to my face that he doesn't want me. Why? Because if I were in his position, I wouldn't want him to give up on me either. I think that may be what he needs, he needs someone to fight for him. I could be very wrong, but I don't believe that he lost his feelings for me.
I haven't been exercising due to finals and all, but next week I think I'm going to start again. Thanks to the break up, I've really lost my appetite and because by stomach is so uneasy and nervous at school, food really makes me feel sick. On Thursday, I had and apple for lunch and a plain milk tea (small size, of course!) for dinner with a small sweet bun. Yesterday, I had an apple for lunch and ramen at a ramen shop for dinner, of which something like 70% is broth, so I'm really not kicking myself for that. It is weird if I say that I can already tell I look less bloated? Pictures may come soon. Good luck with your progress, ladies! I promise I will be ok (:

Sincerely, in need of exercise...

Why am I thinking of exercise today?
Because my mom decided it was a great idea to get burger king for breakfast. What's even worse than that? The fact that while I stuffed my face with grease, we had pre-cut chunks of watermelon sitting in the fridge. Yeah, horrible I know. I ended up eating 2 french toast sticks and about 4 mini hash browns. Luckily, I wasn't even allowed to eat the sandwich once my mom realized she accidentally ordered ones with bacon, which we don't eat, obviously. woohoo! 
I actually ended up never joining ballet because I'm going to take it at a community college. The problem is that now i need something to do! So I think I'm just going to do gymnastics again, even though I really love dance. Gymnastics should help me regain my flexibility. Sadly, I can't even start until my wrist heals (I twisted it). I wanted to start yoga to increase flexibility. Anyone who knows me knows that I've always wanted to learn contortion, but that I never get very far because it takes a lot of time.
Huhhh...I have 2 articles due for journalism and and essay due for english this week...so i'm stressed and breaking out a bit. I'm volunteering at the library 2 times this week, so im BUSYBUSYBUSY. See you lovely people later.
Oh, and what do YOU do for exercise? Let me know ;)

Missing people sucks.

I'm really missing a lot of people today. I must have PMS. You know how you get all emotional

and fuzzy feeling around this time of the month? That's me. I feel like reading

a romance novel, yeah, i've sunk to my all time low. I'm alone since my sisters went shopping and

the rents went out to get my mom's car worked on. I really want to see my girlfriends, and just have a good, real conversation over coffee or something. Ya know? We're thinking about meeting up on Thursday, which is great because i have a few things to fill them in on. I'm also kinda missing my ex today. Im totally over

him now, but i just wish we couldve stayed friends. In a few weeks, itll be a year since we broke up,

so i guess thats why i remembered him today. I doubt he ever thinks about me, considering last time we

talked was november or december of last year. It's good that we ended up separating, though. Now

i have time to do me, and be with friends...and, of course, this blog and all my chickies on here :)

I'm thinking of doing a tips post tomorrow, so hopefully i can think of some...

Im gonna go on a jog now, maybe post a thinspo later, kisses! xoxo